My Pawpaw and my mom
THIS NICE LOOKING 'YOUNG' MAN IS MY PAWPAW. HE IS MY MOM'S FATHER. HE IS THE BEST PAWPAW AND GREAT PAWPAW THAT WALKS THE EARTH IN MY EYES. HE HAS ACCEPTED ME AND MY CHILDREN WITH OPEN ARMS AND WITHOUT JUDGEMENT. HE HAS ALWAYS BEEN HERE FOR ME AND MY FAMILY AND NOW WE ARE THERE FOR HIM. HE HAS GOTTEN OLDER NOW AND SUFFERS FROM PARKINSON'S AND MILD DEMENTIA. I WISH THIS MAN COULD STAY HERE ON THIS EARTH WITH ME UNTIL MY DYING DAY (AND I REALIZE THAT WE AREN'T PROMISED TOMORROW) BUT I HATE SEEING HIM SUFFER LIKE HE HAS BEEN LATELY. TODAY WAS THE FIRST DAY IN MY LIFE, OTHER THAN WHEN HE HAD SURGERY, THAT I SAW HIM AND HE HADN'T EVEN COMBED HIS HAIR. HE HAS ALWAYS BEEN SUCH A GOOD LOOKING MAN AND HE STILL IS BUT YOU CAN SEE IN HIS EYES HOW TIRED HE IS OF BEING SICK AND NOT LIVING LIFE TO THE FULLEST LIKE HE ALWAYS HAS. HE ABSOLUTELY HATES HAVING TO DEPEND ON ANYBODY ELSE B/C HE HAS ALWAYS BEEN SO SELF SUFFICIENT. THERE IS NO DOUBT IN MY MIND THAT HE IS SAVED AND READY TO GO TO HEAVEN FOR HE IS A VERY RIGHTEOUS MAN......PERFECT NO BUT CLOSE. PLEASE PRAY WITH ME TODAY AND IN THE NEXT FEW WEEKS FOR HIS HEALING EVEN IF IT MEANS THAT I HAVE TO RELEASE HIM AND LET HIM GO, FOR HIM I AM WILLING TO DO JUST THAT. I KNOW THAT WHEN THE TIME DOES COME TO LAY HIM TO REST IT WILL BE HARD BUT I KNOW WHERE HE WILL BE AND THAT HE WILL BE 'WELL'!!!
I LOVE YOU PAWPAW SO MUCH AND I THANK YOU FOR TEACHING ME SO MUCH ABOUT LIFE AND IN LIFE. YOU ARE AN AWESOME PAWPAW AND A GREATTTTTTT PERSON. I THANK YOU THE MOST FOR TEACHING ME ABOUT YOUR JESUS AND SHOWING ME HOW TO PRAY AND WORSHIP HIM. EVEN THOUGH WE MIGHT HAVE TO SAY 'GOODBYE' ON THIS EARTH I WILL SEE YOU AGAIN ONE DAY IN HEAVEN. THANK YOU FOR BEING SO GOOD TO MY BABIES EVEN THOUGH YOU DIDN'T HAVE TOO...YOU COULD'VE TURNED YOUR BACK ON US GIVEN THE SITUATION BUT YOU DIDN'T AND I THANK YOU. I KNOW THAT MY DECISIONS HAVEN'T ALWAYS MADE YOU HAPPY BUT I PROMISE YOU THAT I WILL MAKE YOU PROUD. I LOVE YOU WITH ALLLLLLLL MY HEART!!!!
LOVE,
RACHAEL SHAE
