Without going into great detail I just wanted to let you all know that I am about to embark on a very special opportunity in my life. I have many mixed emotions but I know that this is what God wants me to do at this time and I find my peace knowing that I am in His will. It will be hard work but it will be well worth it and this time next year I will be much better off. I am ready for change. Please keep me and my boys in your prayers. We are going to need all of them. Thanks and I love all of you much!!!!!

Rachael

MY PAWPAW

My Pawpaw and my mom

THIS NICE LOOKING 'YOUNG' MAN IS MY PAWPAW. HE IS MY MOM'S FATHER. HE IS THE BEST PAWPAW AND GREAT PAWPAW THAT WALKS THE EARTH IN MY EYES. HE HAS ACCEPTED ME AND MY CHILDREN WITH OPEN ARMS AND WITHOUT JUDGEMENT. HE HAS ALWAYS BEEN HERE FOR ME AND MY FAMILY AND NOW WE ARE THERE FOR HIM. HE HAS GOTTEN OLDER NOW AND SUFFERS FROM PARKINSON'S AND MILD DEMENTIA. I WISH THIS MAN COULD STAY HERE ON THIS EARTH WITH ME UNTIL MY DYING DAY (AND I REALIZE THAT WE AREN'T PROMISED TOMORROW) BUT I HATE SEEING HIM SUFFER LIKE HE HAS BEEN LATELY. TODAY WAS THE FIRST DAY IN MY LIFE, OTHER THAN WHEN HE HAD SURGERY, THAT I SAW HIM AND HE HADN'T EVEN COMBED HIS HAIR. HE HAS ALWAYS BEEN SUCH A GOOD LOOKING MAN AND HE STILL IS BUT YOU CAN SEE IN HIS EYES HOW TIRED HE IS OF BEING SICK AND NOT LIVING LIFE TO THE FULLEST LIKE HE ALWAYS HAS. HE ABSOLUTELY HATES HAVING TO DEPEND ON ANYBODY ELSE B/C HE HAS ALWAYS BEEN SO SELF SUFFICIENT. THERE IS NO DOUBT IN MY MIND THAT HE IS SAVED AND READY TO GO TO HEAVEN FOR HE IS A VERY RIGHTEOUS MAN......PERFECT NO BUT CLOSE. PLEASE PRAY WITH ME TODAY AND IN THE NEXT FEW WEEKS FOR HIS HEALING EVEN IF IT MEANS THAT I HAVE TO RELEASE HIM AND LET HIM GO, FOR HIM I AM WILLING TO DO JUST THAT. I KNOW THAT WHEN THE TIME DOES COME TO LAY HIM TO REST IT WILL BE HARD BUT I KNOW WHERE HE WILL BE AND THAT HE WILL BE 'WELL'!!!

I LOVE YOU PAWPAW SO MUCH AND I THANK YOU FOR TEACHING ME SO MUCH ABOUT LIFE AND IN LIFE. YOU ARE AN AWESOME PAWPAW AND A GREATTTTTTT PERSON. I THANK YOU THE MOST FOR TEACHING ME ABOUT YOUR JESUS AND SHOWING ME HOW TO PRAY AND WORSHIP HIM. EVEN THOUGH WE MIGHT HAVE TO SAY 'GOODBYE' ON THIS EARTH I WILL SEE YOU AGAIN ONE DAY IN HEAVEN. THANK YOU FOR BEING SO GOOD TO MY BABIES EVEN THOUGH YOU DIDN'T HAVE TOO...YOU COULD'VE TURNED YOUR BACK ON US GIVEN THE SITUATION BUT YOU DIDN'T AND I THANK YOU. I KNOW THAT MY DECISIONS HAVEN'T ALWAYS MADE YOU HAPPY BUT I PROMISE YOU THAT I WILL MAKE YOU PROUD. I LOVE YOU WITH ALLLLLLLL MY HEART!!!!

LOVE,

RACHAEL SHAE

CHARLSIE & ELIJAH AT THE PUMPKIN PATCH



LANDON, CHARLSIE, & ELIJAH AT THE PUMPKIN PATCH



ELIJAH AT THE LOCKIN AT CHURCH ROASTING MARSHMELLOWS



I have a few pictures to post for now. We have been really busy lately. Jalen turned 9 and had a birthday party at the jumping place. Thanks to all of my family for making that possible. I will be posting pictures from his party soon.





We are gearing up for Halloween. Jalen is going to be the Bumblebee transformer and Elijah is going to be Woody. It's going to be a trip.

Finally some good news

Finally some good news to share. Nothing that I am extremely proud of but when you have 2 children to feed and take care of you have to do what is in their best interest and for my best interest also. I got approved for food stamps FINALLY and it has helped out tremendously. I went and applied for medicaid for me and my boys today and please pray that we are approved ASAP. I was able to go to Cooper Green and get a blue card today and so for once in a very LONG time I feel at ease. I mean seriously that is A HUGE BURDEN OFF OF ME. I mean do I want to be on welfare forever....NO but I will do what I have to do to support my boys. I give all the credit to the good Lord above for being with me during the whole ordeal. Like I said in my last post....HE WILL NEVER LEAVE US NOR FORSAKE US and He is ALWAYS true to his word. He loves his children and will make sure that WE are taking care of at all times all we have to do is believe.

Thank you for all of your prayers recently. I couldn't have made it this far without them!!!!!

God Bless,
Rachael

Anybody else going through a critical time in your life? A relative suggested that I read the book of Hebrews to remind me of God's grace, mercy, and unconditional love for me and I am still reading it for like the 50th time because it is so good and has moved me so much. I will leave you with one of my favorite verses in the whole bible which happens to come from Hebrews.

Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, NEVER WILL I LEAVE YOU; NEVER WILL I FORSAKE YOU. Hebrews 13:5 Yep so when we are in the valley (even for what seems like a lifetime) He is right there with us or in my case right where I left him.

Keep praying,
Rachael

I know that alot of people have been asking what you could do for me and my family at this time and my answer remains the same....Prayer! Yep please just continue to pray for me and my family to be made whole again. I am feeling and doing much better but I know that your prayers are what has gotten me through the last 2 weeks and so I am soliciting more prayer. Thank you so very much!

Rachael--

Great family and friends

I just would like to thanks the family and friends who have stood by myside during the past week or so as I've entered yet ANOTHER not so fun journey but I will make it! Thanks and I love all of you!

Love,
Rach--